Back to the subject of sleep

Earlier posts I have mentioned trying to gert rid of ambien and red bull. I’ve done pretty good with cutting back on Ambien. If I am desperate I might take a 1/4 of an ambien so about 2.5 mg. Sometimes I do have to up the dosage but I just uyse it to fall asleep if I just can’t seem to dose off.

My ailment? Life! Nothing wrong just seems like such a waste to go to bed and waste time with eyes closed when there is so many things to enjoy and do whilst awake. I hate wasting time and that’s all sleep seems like to me is a total waste of time. I guess if I valued it I might get some but I have come to realise I don’t have to march to everyone else’s drum on this topic. I get it, to be healthy you are suppposed to to get 8 hours of sleep, you are supoosed to sleep at night because of body natural rhythmns, you are supposed to do a lot of things and they don’t all fit for everyone is my conclusion.

I frequently stay up 24 hours and then when I do go to bed I am tired. Iam not exhausted just tired enough to sleep more naturally. Sometimes in the middle of the day I am tired. Well then I take a nap (3-4 hours worth). This doesn’t happen often but mostly I am realising it happens when I have supposedly had a good nights rest. The thing is those naps, when I am going to bed because I am really tired I sleep naturally and deeply.

Last night I was in bed by 2am I think. I woke up at 8:30 which is a whole lot of sleep for me and uninterrupted. What’s the result? Well just like the last day I got more than 6 hours of sleep, I am tired during the day. Too many things going on to take a nap today and I am not exhausted jst could certainly sleep.

I am and have always been a night owl! I love the quiet and peacefulness of the night. When I lived in the marina, it seemed anytime I was outside, visible to others, someone needed something. I like to help so I truly didn’t mind. I loved however taking walks at night, 2-3 in the morning when no one but myself was out and about. The beauty of the night, the silence the ability to hear myself think, just valuable recuperation time. Working at night at the airport is much like this. You can focus on the job, enjoy your music either in earplugs or the boombox. The night (during non rainy time of the year) is beautiful and the silence of the daily aero plane noise is a worthy change of pace.

Those who know me well don’t hesitate to give me a call at 3am. I’ve had guys from work call me up at home at that time of day or even as late (early for some) as 4.30 or 5am. They know, knowing me, that I am probably wide awake and can figure out whatever the situation is they are inquiring about. Day trade, tv issues, internet issues etc…. Those who really know me well also know better than to disturb me during my prime sleep times, about 6am to 10am. I’m random in the whole sleep thing and the randomness I think I am realising is better for me than the accepted norms. Naps work better for me than sleep and I am realising that once again in my life I need to not try and follow the accepted norms but rather listen to my inner self and body and be true to what I need. I don’t have to march to everyone else’s drum – I don’t otherwise so why worry about trying in the sleep realm?

A friend of mine recently suggested that maybe my sleep patterns/habits are more a part of my DNA. His hypothesis is that back in primitive type days you needed people to keep watch and some people probably naturally can stay up at all hours or have evolved by necessity to be night owls per se. In my situation, I was security police in the Navy so that certainly was the beginning of my alternating day/night schedule and my perpetual be on watch and alert type of behaviour. I’m happy with my lifestyle and just have learned better than to make definite plans for an early morning unless of course it is before the sun comes up then, I’m probably still awake anyhow.